To the bits!

Well, for those of you who do not know, I am currently in the great state of Arizona visiting one of my best friends with another one of my best friends. Jacqueline, who lives in AZ, I have known since middle school and Lindsay, law student at William & Mary, has been one of my best friends since high school. Anyway, they are two people that I know love me so deeply. When my heart hurts, I know they are praying fervently for me. And I love that so much about them.

If you haven't met the other 3 (And I'm going to hope not all 6 of us at one time) you would know we are a little much.  La, Steph, Kass, Linds, Jac, and I are an eclectic group. We all have different personalities, interests, gifts, strengths, and weaknesses. But there is one thing that brings us together... we are the weirdest group of people you may ever meet. And we love it. Ok... maybe there is another one... we love Jesus.

I have changed a lot these past few months. And today Jacqueline's roommate asked me if all of these changes have made me question my friendships. And the answer is N.O. I have some of the greatest, most supportive, encouraging, beautiful, and amazing friends anyone could ever ask for. And the choices that I have made in my diet, my vices, and my faith have been so encouraged by them. It has been amazing.

Here is why I am telling you this about these beautiful people who have loved me so well through my crazy crazy years. I have a boat load of insecurities that I will not be loved. Also, it is a legitimate fear that the people who love you have the ability to leave you. People are not perfect and can be hurtful. I am sure that a lot of you can attest to this as a sad truth. And my heart breaks for you. For those who have witnessed divorce or loss of friends or break ups, my heart hurts for you. And my heart hurts because it has happened in my own life. But I am so thankful that God has protected my heart from some really tough and hard relationship losses.

I just started reading Beth Moore's "So Long Insecurities" and it is amazing to think how drastically they can affect your life. I know everyone has some insecurity, but does it define who you are? I pray that it doesn't. 

My friends have been so loving and caring through my moments of weakness. But they also are not afraid to call you out. Do you have people like that in your life?