the great victory!

Tonight was good. It was really good. Tonight, for the first time in my life, I had a conversation with my mom about my weight and I didn't leave the conversation upset. Now, let me clarify! It is not my mom who made me upset, it has always been my weight and insecurities. My mom and I disagree on a few things, and honestly... most of the time her opinion has not been welcomed. (Sorry mom!!!!)  But she does love me and wants the best for me. And after many years, I am starting to understand the way she loves me. She inserts her opinion because she doesn't want me to be unhealthy, or broke, or unhappy. The only reason why it's been difficult for us is because of my indepence and my "live and learn" mentality. But she means the best. 

Now let me tell you about the conversation! We talked about me forming healthy habits. Like packing my lunch, going to the gym, and eating fruits and vegetables. We talked about the long term goal of being healthy-- not just physically but mentally and spiritually. She asked me how I was doing with the mental part of dieting. And I'll tell you, there is definitely a mental battle that comes with forming healthy habits. 

For those of you who know me best, you would know that I have a tendancy to quit. Something gets challenging and I drop it like a hot cake (which sounds so yummy right now). So for the first time in my life I have stuck to my guns and I'm fighting for what is good for me. Also, if you know me well, you would know that there are somethings that are very hard for me to talk about. And weight is one of those things. 

With that being said, I am so thankful for this blog and the numerous people who have reached out to talk to me about it. It has been so good for me to talk about my weight and about the demons I face with it. Also, please don't hesitate to ask me any questions! And also don't hesitate to tell me to can it if I talk about it too much! (I am expecting a lot of sarcastic remarks after saying that...)

Tonight was a huge victory! A hugeee victory and I hope you will join me in rejoicing!